It is Tuesday morning, and I am sitting back at my desk at work. I'm dead tired, I know my clothes are a bit wrinkled, because I didn't feel like doing a steady ironing job, and I am desperately fighting off the urge to be cranky and unleash my wrath on anyone around me. I also made the mistake of telling people at work that I was going to see my son last week. I was excited, and who'd have thought that a week later, I wouldn't see him at all. I wish I could just send a memo to everyone, explaining that I didn't see my son, and I don't want to talk about why. But anyway, I did more than enough complaining over the past few days, so I'm going to let that shit go now. I'm taking the necessary steps to make things right, and that's really all I can do. Bitching and moaning, while absolutely necessary at times, simply will NOT help anything at this point. I will say one last thing though. Going thru difficult times like this provides a whole lot of clarity in terms of who your friends are and aren't; it also helps to determine who is important in your life, and who is expendable. That something that I never planned on happening, it just kind of did, and I have mixed feelings about that right now. But if you ever need a friend litmus test, a difficult situation is certainly a way to go about it.

I'm sure its just a bad coincidence, but three black baseball managers have been fired over the past few days: Dusty Baker of the Cubs, Felipe Alou of the Giants, and Frank Robinson of the Washington Nationals. Felipe and Frank are in their 70s, and although they both were still doing the most with substandard teams, their age will pretty much preclude them from getting another managerial position. But Dusty Baker definitely deserves another shot, since he has a well-deserved reputation as a players' coach. He just had the unlucky task of trying to rescue the Chicago Cubs, who now have the distinction of being the most cursed team in sports, since the Red Sox won the series two years back. Anyway, I know I'm supposed to look past race now, especially since baseball has made strides in that department. Still, I wonder if any of those now open positions, will be filled by qualified black candidates. Baseball isn't obligated to do that, but still, I'm very curious.

I'll admit it, I feel lost right about now. I could really use a few more days off to get my head right, but I dont have that luxury right now.