Tuesday, January 16, 2007

At first I thought it was just a fleeting problem, but no I'm starting to realize that me waking up between 4:30 and 5am EVERY morning, has become a way of life. I've tried going to bed at before 11, 'round midnight, and one time I even stayed up until damn near 2am, and I still seem to wake up at that same time. I know my grandmother used to get up at an insane hour and listen to gospel music all morning(that's so not going to happen here), and my father gets up early in the morning, and does God knows what. Me myself(i vowed to never use this combo), when I wake up, I tend to read, I listen to sports talk radio, or I just stare at my genitals pondering when they will be in some non self action. But it starting to get played out at this point, and I need a solution, remedy or something.

My ladyfriend(I learned this term from my friend Cliff's dad a long time ago. He described his lady, as his ladyfriend, and I always thought that was so distinguished. Girlfriend is juvenile, "my bitch" is offensive, and my "friend" is a bit too ambiguous. Ladyfriend is just right), told me the other day that my blog is my girl(she's not hip to ladyfriend phenomenon). She said I stay faithful to it, I check up on it, and I sometimes think about it even when I am away from it. To a certain degree that is true; however, my blog has never gotten on top of me and rode me like Barbaro. Also, this blog gives me far fewer problems, than the ones women can possibly cause. If I see something I don't like, I can hit the delete button sans consequences. If I do that with a woman, the next thing you know she's calling your phone non stop, sending you dirty emails, or trying to get in your house uninvited. Seriously though, from time to time, I am impressed that I have actually stayed consistent with this. There were MANY years when I couldn't even maintain a personal journal. I'd write a few things down, then take weeks and weeks off, and then revisit. In fact yesterday while cleaning up my house, I found some entries. I write way better now anyway.

So what did I do for Martin Luther King Day? Not a damn thing, and I feel bad about it. There was a Peace Walk in Southeast DC, that I thought about going to for a minute, but I changed my mind. I also tried to find this speech that King gave back in 1968, when he basically said, forget all this civil rights stuff, let's get money and political power (which would make him a Republican in today's world), but I couldn't find where I put that. So I did nothing but watch tv and think of him. However, I DO hope that both Indianapolis and Chicago advance to the Super Bowl since they both have black coaches. That would be a first..I'm sure Dr. King would be happy that I put positive thought towards that. I should be ashamed..and I take nothing away from the man, because he was brilliant and brave..and my bravery is something that I've yet to really test. But damn I've been celebrating this holiday since '83, sometimes I run out of stuff to do, so thinking of him isn't so bad is it? I sound ignorant right now, I need to do better.

My Flame - Bobby Caldwell

4 comments:

LittleTortilla stays in DC said...

I went to feed the homeless but it wasn't organized well and instead I watched the homeless people eat.

p.s. i hate your word verification. i think i'm challenged

hadassah444 said...

I worked yesterday and matter of fact worked 12 hours. I think Martin Luther the King would be proud that at least I have a job....I wonder sometimes would he want us to take the day off when he fought so hard to get us better working conditions....and we still ainet free!!!

WHAT!! all the sports that was on this past weekend and you have nothing to say....

Maybe because the eagles lost, hahaha...

yeah tho, this entry sucks **smile**

Jo said...

I thought the whole point of the holiday was to have a day of rest to remember the struggles of the civil rights movement and the contributions of men like King. I didn't think you actually had to DO anything. Just having King day off is vistory in and of itself. SO MANY of us STILL have to go to work on King's day. I thought it was cool, though, that this year King's day really did fall on his birthday. That was nice.

yo momma said...

I am an early riser as well. I tend to get up no later than 730 although 5 in the morning wouldn't be too bad because I am most productive in the morning. When the night comes, even if I am not tired, I tend to get lazy.