I talked to my Dad for nearly 2 hours last night, and I am realizing that there is still a lot that I don't know about that man. I know he has an office somewhere in Maryland, and I know he goes to work with a briefcase, and his cell phone stays ringing with clients, but I still don't know what the hell he does. I mean sure he gave me lessons to go with the Kareem book I'm currently reading, and sure we talked about sports and the NCAA tournament, and he asked me about my son, the status of me and my ladyfriend, my brother, and everything else under the sun. But I always come away from conversations and visits with him feeling like I'm not tapping into this relationship as much as I should be. I think when I was younger I was scared to overstep that father/son boundary, plus a part of me was scared of him anyway. Now? That wall of fear hasn't completely been broken down, and it probably never will(although I think its more respect than fear); however, I think my father and I are now friends, which means I can get to the bottom of some of these mysteries/questions that have been bothering me for quite some time including his divorce from my mother back in '93.

So what the hell does all this mean? This means that after I got off the phone with my dad, I wrote a sketchy outline and about 15 interview questions for a book about and with my dad. And since my new laptop is scheduled to arrive any day now, I will put that thing to use and start typing it out. The published blog will still be my first book, but the second one will be about my father. I have to think of a way to distinguish it from some of the other bulllshit father/son books out there, but that shouldn't be too difficult..I don't think. I do know that when my book(s) get published, I expect every person who knows me, knew me, touched me, read my blog, got fucked over by me, knows me indirectly through a friend, and all that, to purchase my book.

Of course this got me to thinking, once I get published, and if I'm lucky enough to make it on the talk show circuit, who would I want to talk to? My wish list? First and foremost, I'd have to go on PTI, then Oprah(she does huge numbers) David Letterman(I've been watching him for 16 years), Tavis Smiley(I don't like his show, but I know lots of potential book buyers who do), and Bill O'Reilly. Why would I want to go on Bill O'Reilly? So I can dazzle him with my intelligence and wit, discredit all of his pseudo points..and then the minute he cut one of my sentences off, I would backhand him, stand over him with my crotch right in his face, and calmly say, "Now what bitch?!?!?". I hear that kind of rowdy behavior does wonders for book sales and street cred, which is what I have been eternally chasing. Ok now I'm starting to get carried away..how about I write the book(s) first, and worry about everything else later..


Where Are You Now - Brandy (produced and all instruments played by Mr. Lenny Kravitz)