Saturday, March 24, 2007

So I am sitting here in a coffee shop, drinking cranberry (pronounced cranburry) juice, typing away at my laptop, and looking about as pretentious as I can be. I have not showered, but my teeth are brushed, so I'm breaking even there. I have on no underwear and sweatpants, and I look like I am on my to a track meet. Yet all is well in the world, because i finally can lug this damn laptop everywhere I go, and type something any time a bit of inspiration hits me. It is my fantasy to be having mind blowing sex, and then mid-stroke think of an idea, and then i come right quick, and then get up, clean up, then sit down at my laptop buck naked and type the words, then I would minimize the screen, and go back to having sex. This of course will happen NO time soon, but I can be ambitious right?

So this morning, at about 7am, I said goodbye to my on and off girlfriend of 7 years. As documented in this here blog, around January, I wrote that she and I were going to try to make it work, I was going to move out there, we were going to married, etcetera, etcetera(in a cashmere sweater). Well as it turned out, we didn't make it that far. Our intentions were good, love was there, but it simply did not work out the way we planned. After I hit my hand on that wall, doubt about whether I was really and truly ready crept in, and from there it slowly deteriorated. I am very sad, but strangely I am relieved at the same time. There is still a chance that sometime down the road I may regret this decision, but for right now I think this is the right thing to do. And for now, that is all I am going to say about that.

It's a rainy Saturday, and I may quite possibly spend my entire day in here playing around on the internet..until the basketball games start at least.

By the way, do you believe that this man is 19 years old? Me either, but that's what his birth certificate says. Hopefully he will lead Ohio State to the promised land..

It's Over - Eddie Holman

5 comments:

nichole said...

yeah, the fist to the wall thing didn't seem to bode well.

sometimes love is not enough.

Miss Black River said...

Hoya Saxa - March Madness is fun, fun, fun!! Well when you actually see the games that is. I'm so pressed with work right now that I missed that Georgetown game last night. Hopefully I will be free enough to see some of Sunday.Tip-off is 5:05 y'all.

LittleTortilla stays in DC said...

what kind did you get? If you got a mac I can hook you up.

Jo said...

Good luck with singledom again . . .

And HELL NAW he don't look 19 . . .he must have had a hard life! LOL!

He looks older than me . . .

Janelle said...

As you know through my relationship woes, love is never enough. I always thought it was, but apparently that's not the case for everyone. But on to the next adventure in love, I say! (yeah right) LOL

My theory on dude from Ohio State is that his 19 year old son is buried in his backyard and he is trying to recapture his glory years. I think I watch too much Law & Order. LMAO