Friday, May 18, 2007

You ever have a really evil thought flash into your head? You don't ever plan on acting on it, but it crosses you mind in great detail, and then you quietly let it slip out of your mind. I had such a thought about 10 minutes ago as I walked across the street. I saw a young couple at a red light kissing passionately, while taking momentarily breaks to see of the light turned green. While I was walking past them, I thought of opening the door on the driver's side, dragging them out and taking their car, then driving up a bit while the back wheels left tire prints on both of their chests. Then I'd get out of the car, take the keys out, and throw them in between the couple. Now that whole thought process went through my mind in about 20 seconds and then I kept it moving. Normally I would keep that to myself, but what good is a blog if you can't share demented gems like that?

So tomorrow I am participating in a walk for cervical cancer, and I have mixed feelings about it to be perfectly honest. When this was brought to me, I jumped on the chance to help out since my ex(who was my girlfriend at the time) had been diagnosed with that form of cancer as well. I thought this would be useful cause to lend my assistance to. I didn't volunteer to walk though, I chose to be one of those people who makes sure the walkers are staying on course, and occasionally I'll provide encouragement. The thing that has me hesitant about this(besides waking up at 6:30 am on a Saturday) is how to conduct myself at an event like this. I participated in a breast cancer run before, and the mood was weird. There were people who were happy as cancer survivors, there were people who had lost loved ones to the disease, who would randomly burst into tears, and then there folks who were just walking with contemplative looks..relatively emotionless. My emotions were all over the place watching them, since I didn't fall under any of those categories, and it ended up being a very somber experience. As I type this I realize that can be interpreted as selfish, but it really was not. It was just a new experience for me. So this go round, I DO have someone I know who has beat the disease(for the most part), but I will be upbeat and happy. I just hope I don't happen to offend anyone who is one of those somber moods. Or perhaps I'm pulling a typical Rashad and over thinking. Either way, it'll make for an interesting blog tomorrow.

In fact, if I get off my ass and do all the things I was invited to do this weekend, there should be lots of things to write's that for a teaser?

Tell Me Something Good - Rufus featuring Chaka Khan
This song makes me think of having sex in hot ass room with no air conditioning and no fan.


hadassah444 said...

Poor unsuspecting couple!!!
It would've made for interesting reading..oh but wait, you wouldnt be able to type in your blog from prison. you're one crazy man Rashad, LOL

TGIF, enjoy your weekend!!!

Bashful said...

Dayum Rashad! LOL! Sound like there is some bitterness there, that couple did not do anything to you. Thank you for particpating in the walk...:)

LittleTortilla stays in DC said...

That song also makes me think of...well let's keep this blog PG13. You will do fine at the walk because people will just appreciate you lending a hand.

TM said...

The first part of that sounded a bit Alley McBeal-ish (I'm sure you have no clue what I'm talking about). I thought about participating in that walk and completely forgot. Good for you! It should be a very rewarding experience.

Michell said...

I love the song choice today. I think it's wonderful that you're participating in the walk.

Anonymous said...

"tell me something good" is one of my favorite songs, and it makes me think of a bunch of nasty thoughts, too.
well, it doesn't take much to make me think nasty thoughts, but it really makes my heart pick up speed.
good choice.

Jo said...

Yes, RM that was a demented gem.