Tuesday, June 19, 2007

It is heat like this that makes me wish I lived in the Pacific Northwest when it never gets too hot or cold. I walked outside this morning and it was already 77 degreees, and I began to perspire like Patrick Ewing in the layup line. This is that type of heat that makes you pick a fight with someone just to release frustration. This is the type of heat that makes you dress inappropriately to work(as a man), because it is simply too hot for the traditional business casual attire. This is the type of heat that drives women to wear some insanely skimpy dress with open toe shoes. Okay so maybe this type of heat isn't all bad, but I can't stand it at all. Give me 70 degree weather year round.

As I have alluded to before, I am an emotional and mental wreck right now. For the most part, I am able to hold it together long enough to be productive during the day, but recent developments have me feeling a bit crazy. I am still quite confident that long term, I will be just fine, and by the time football season rolls around in September, I will look back on this period of time and chuckle..not laugh. But getting to the point from where I am now is a difficult task, and it is not something I can easily convey to anyone. I find myself snapping at folks a lot quicker than usual and not just because of the heat. Sometimes I sit and stare into space thinking about all types of things. I'm not going to sit here and say my life is ALL bad, because I have some very good things going for me as I sit here and type this. It's just a tough time man, and I could use some good energy, prayers, lapdances, all that good stuff.

When Your Life Was Low - Lalah Hathaway and Joe Sample

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

I swear this is the only time I will do this. I just felt you needed it today.

two verses that I hope inspire you:

Romans 8: 24-25

24For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for?

25But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.

wipe your sweat Rashad, things will get better.

BewRadley said...

this heat is oppressive..

don't dwell on the negatives..embrace the positives.

Unknown said...

although they weren't meant for rashad, i needed those verses today, too. thank you, h444.

rashad, normally, i would listen to this song and get a bit emotional, but i'm trying to have a good day. i love this song tho. it's on my dj lonelyhearts playlist.

Anonymous said...

Think of it as track and field man. If you keep looking back it is going to slow you up. Just keep looking forward and say the past is in the past. You and I have been thru worse. Hold your head.

Unknown said...

I don't know what to say. Let's go objectify women during lunch this week? I mean I have nothing.

Is it the lack of sports options? The college world series not keeping your attention?

Keep your head up.

p.s. Sample and Hathaway make a dynamic duo.

Unknown said...

c'mon man... don't complain about summer and girls wearing dresses... if anyone has a right to complain about the weather it's me who has to 'suffer' through woman wearing parkas all winter to deal with the snow and cold here in Toronto!! :P

Yes, I realize that this comment makes me a jerk but I just don't care this morning...