Saturday, June 02, 2007

The past 24 hours of my life, I think I have gotten my money's worth in the emotion department. Every single emotion you can possibly feel, I have felt and then some. Last night I was out drinking with friends, and I had a damn good time talking, joking and laughing. Of course I drank too much, which is what happens when the prices are cheap, and everyone is having fun. My two good female friends over the past 6 years were out with me for the first time ever, and it was a lot of fun, and a little weird. Usually you don't want your worlds to collide like that, but it wasn't a problem at all. A friend of mine that I used to talk to was also there, and she made the evening fun as well. Good times had by all. So that represented the happy part of my weekend. Then earlier today, I went to my old apt for the last and final time to remove any sensitive papers, documents or anything that may have been lying around. The finality of the situation hit me hard while I was in there, and I just starting crying..again. I felt like a punk for doing so, but the fact that I was picking thru MY stuff, sifting thru things that were burned and smelled of smoke, was just too much for me to deal with. Plus it was dark in these, glass was everywhere, and I realized that this was a lost cause and I left. I'm never going back again, its just too much, and frankly at this point, its time to move on. that's the sadness portion of my weekend. And then I spent some time with my father once again, and he made me feel comfortable. Don't get me wrong, my friends made me feel comfortable today and yesterday, but there is something about the comfort a parent can give you that unparalleled. I can't tell you how happy I was to see my father, and listen to him wax poetic on the same shit he always does. It just sounded and felt different this time.

So now I'm sitting here in the dark, on my laptop, waiting for the game to start and I'm realizing how lucky and blessed I am, and you KNOW for me to say i'm blessed I must really be in a weird place. But I am. I'm ready to put this fire stuff behind me, and I'm ready to leave DC behind, and move somewhere else for now. My friends and family here have been instrumental in helping me get back on my feet, and nowhere near there quite yet. But i'm on my way man..I really am. I actually have more to say, but the game is getting ready to come on, so i'm must skedaddle

This entry has been brought to you by Mr. Joel Osteen.

5 comments:

hadassah444 said...

God Bless Rashad

LittleTortilla stays in DC said...

Stay positive. I wanted to post about Craig Sager's suit but I can't find a picture.

Anonymous said...

a shout out to joel...finally:)

Jo said...

Joel Osteen was able to present a nice entry . . .I liked it. I am glad you are ready to move on . . . I am, too, so can I come wit' you?

And hey, I like it when my worlds collide . . .it makes things so much more exciting! LOL!

Jo said...

PS. You are so blessed . . .glad you know it . . .