I really wasn't going to blog today, especially since I felt so strongly about yesterday's entry that I was going to take a break today. That all went out of the window, when my intern started discussing heartbreak and relationships with me. He asked me if I had gotten my heart broken, and I said no, and he gave he this incredulous look. I then explained to him that my non heartbreak had more to do with me bailing quickly, than it had to do with good luck. I also explained those times when I would cheat on someone, then beg for them back, and they would say no..that isnt really heartbreak though, that's just plain selfishness. Anyway, talking to him made me realize how shady I have been in the past(although therapy has brought this out too). But gone are the days when I'm going to be hard on myself, because I am finally in a relationship that is damn good. I can't say I don't occasionally think about karma jumping and getting me, but the longer this goes, I think about it less and less. As for the intern, he needs to man up and grow some balls. These women are running all over him like Jerome Bettis, and he's still focusing on them, rather than focusing on his current 9 month relationship. I try to give advice, but I know he'll have about 5 or 6 more heartbreaks before he learns his lesson. Lord knows it took me a long time, and I'm sure there are still more to learn. But at least I was getting some at 22....

I hope this reads like a stream of consciousness, because that's how I typed it.

Shadows - Branford Marsalis