Monday, December 01, 2008

I do believe I have been able to pinpoint that exact reason why I have seemingly lost my blog mojo. When I first starting writing this, and for damn near two years after that, I was ONLY writing here. This was my only outlet. I was single, so my relationship adventures were interesting, but there was also an element of unhappiness there too, which again, makes for an interesting blog. Now? Things are much different in my life, and that's absolutely a good thing. I can still write here when I want to, but I now have a writing JOB that requires me to tap into a different skill set than before. There are times when I am so worn out from writing about basketballl(and believe me this is not a complaint) that I don't have the energy to type out a complete blog entry. And then when I do feel like writing one, it involves an aspect of my relationship which is deeply personal like sex or something, but no one wants to read about that..I think.

But that's the second reason why my blog prowess if you will, has suffered, and its because I'm in a relationship. In bad relationships, my loyalties were with the blog, and did not give a good goddamn if the person I was talking to happened to stumble on what I wrote. I was the midst of a defiant streak. Now, not only am I conscience about what I write, but I don't even want to reveal certain things.

Of course things still happen from time to time that are crying out for me to write about, like me sitting next to a openly gay, black sports journalist at Friday's Wizards game, but those are few and far between...

So yeah at the Wizards game I sat next to this guy name LZ Granderson(my hyperlink function is not working, so google him). At the time, I did not know he was gay, I just recognized him, and struck up a conversation that was strictly about sports. Before he got up and left, he shook my hand, gave me a half hug, and wished me luck. So, when I got home, I typed up an email to him saying thank you and I hoped to interview him sometime in the future. When I searched for his email address, I just happened to roll up on the fact that he is one of the few openly gay journalists, who doesn't primarily write for a gay publication (he writes for ESPN). Now, I must admit, before I hit send on that thank you email, I hesitated just a bit. I didn't want him to think I was trying to be slick about hitting on him..but then I got smart. That was awfully arrogant of me to think he wanted me, plus, this is an opportunity to bond with someone who has a job at a place where I'd love to work. So I hit send..I'm still waiting for a response...

4 comments:

Jazzbrew said...

I dig LZ's writing. I can't remember how I found out but I knew he was gay. I think he mentioned it in one of his articles.

Oh and I feel you regarding the blog stuff. I need to update my music site as it's been stale for a minute. One cat used my comments on his CD in an advertising for his shows. I felt like big willie. It told me that people are paying attention to the site and I need to keep it fresh.

Miss. Lady said...

Why did the he/she Cookie pop into my mind as I was reading this? LOL!

Anyway, I do feel you regarding the blog. As life changes and things become more personal I tend to run out of things that I actually feel like sharing.

But it is the holiday season and the crazies are officially out in full effect so I am sure there will be some blog worthy stuff happening.

sixfive said...

Good that you sent the email, I'm sure it was cool. I knew he was gay too, he wrote that in one of his columns a couple years ago I think, but I forget exactly what it was about. Might have been about a gay ex-NFL player?

£ said...

I think I lost my blog mojo too. well not that I really had any to begin with. but yeah mine is dying slowly. I keep waiting for inspiration to come and so far...nothing.

anyway as our fearless leader, you are not allowed to lose your mojo. I won't have it! (but, no pressure. lol)