Tuesday, September 30, 2008

The danger of putting each and every one of your thoughts and feelings in this blog, is that people expect to read just that. If I write about something as mundane as sunglasses or as boring as sports, I notice I get less views and considerably less comments, and I guess I can accept that. But there are times when life hits me hard like a Visa commercial, and I go through an internal struggle. Do I continue to put my life out here on the internet for all to see, or do I reel it in, work it out, and then blog about it once I have solution. For the issue that is bothering me today, I am going to keep it in..I know someone is reading this saying, "Well damn, why mention it if you aren't going to discuss it?" to which I would respond, "I don't know." Real deep huh?

I CAN say that early this morning I had my prostate exam and it was just hell on wheels. I don't know whether it was my imagination or not, but it seems like he kept his finger in there for over 2 minutes. He didn't just stick it in and out, but he probed, poked and prodded, and then took it out and made me "clean myself up" while he talked about Obama, prostate cancer, and playing basketball. If you are a woman and you're reading this, then ignore it, because I know how much more invasive your gyno exams are. But I don't have that frame of reference to call upon when I am being violated. I just know I hate it, and I'd be willing to donate two or three of my paychecks to finding a more resourceful way of detecting that form of cancer.

I wish I was a bit more festive today, but I'm not feeling it right now. Perhaps watching Dancing with the Stars will cheer me up.

Oh, and if anyone has seen Spike Lee's new movie, can you give me yay or nay? I'm hearing mixed review

7 comments:

tia said...

aww, rashad. cheer up, chum.

Sab D said...

Dancing with the stars? First the fat boys break up, now this.

Man you gotta get strong before your girl try to boost your spirits by making you watch a lifetime movie with her

rashad said...

Thank you Tia
And Sab..she's been trying to get me to watch those lifetime movies for about a year. and i only watch dancing with the stars because toni braxton is on there...

£ex said...

hey buddy...i hope whatever is bothering you comes to pass soon and with a positive outcome.

and um, funk the haters its your blog so you can talk about whatever you please! AND, might i add, i always read, even when it does suck. :P

i was going to make a joke abt ur prostate massag-- exam but since you're kinda blue i'll keep it to myself :)

JazzBrew said...

Man.... you are scaring with the prostate exam thing. I am not looking forward to my first. I am seriously thinking about switching to a woman doctor with small fingers. No joke. I could also put some kind of kinky mental spin on the whole experience.

rashad said...

JazzBrew,
No matter the sex, there's no way for that exam to be smooth..its about as asexual as you can get. now outside of the dr's office....

JazzBrew said...

In the words of Florida Evans:

Damn, damn, damn!!!