Sunday, May 27, 2007

I have been called homophobic before, and to some degree I may very well be one. It used to be I would see gay couples, and say to myself, whatever works for them, but I really didn't have an opinion either way. I had the attitude of a parent, whose child brings home a girl/boy friend who they don't agree with: I don't care for who you picked, but if that's what you want then fine. But then, some time in my mid 20s, I started getting hit on by men, and then I started getting angry. There are some people who said I should be flattered, but I never quite saw it that way. Some of the men would be very very bold, even after I made it clear that I didn't have the ghey. Now, right or wrong, I am very defensive and on edge when I see SOME gay men. For example, yesterday, my friend Michell and I went to go shopping at Pentagon City, and there were gay men everywhere. I felt myself get a bit annoyed, although it helped that I was with a woman. I know this is a touchy subject, and the chances of offending someone when talking about this are great, but it helps to be honest I guess. Still, I didn't like how angry I got yesterday, so I need to check that.

I went to an interesting cookout last night...First off, it was clear that everyone there knew each other, and they really didn't take a shine to my friend Raydiance and I showing up. Raydiance and I knew one of the roommates who lived there, but the rest of the roommates, while a bit friendly, were a bit standoffish as were the rest of their friends. I felt a bit uncomfortable from the jump, and as a result, I didn't eat, I didn't sit down, and I didnt speak to anyone except Raydiance and Nekia(the woman we know). At some point, I felt like my rudeness was clearly evident, but hey in that situation its all about self preservation baby. Raydiance, not understand the rules of trying to execute an early exit, sat down, had a plate of food, and ventured out to talk with other people, which extended our attendance at this cookout by like 25 minutes. I got on the phone, I tried to molest the dog that was running around, but nothing could mask my frustration with being there. Adding to the comic relief was the DJ, who was mingling in the crowd talking about how he was taking requests. I kept thinking to myself, man you are the effing DJ. It is YOUR job to read and move the crowd, not take requests like this is KISS-FM. We finally left after about 35-40 minutes, and I want that time restored back to me. I still love you though Nekia..By the way, later on that night, I saw a woman walking in front of me, who with TWO hands, removed her underwear from her ass. Now i've seen this maneuver done with one hand while walking, and i've seen it down with two hands while standing, but to see it with two hands whilst walking? that is unprecedented, and I wanted to shake her dirty hand, but for obvious reasons I didn't.

And finally, I am going to discuss this UFC/MMA phenomenon. I was in a bar last night, and people in there were going crazy at the sight of two men fighting, and to me, it was boring. Boxing isn't called the sweet science for nothing. Two men, have to use their hands, and their bodies to hit and not got hit. When done correctly, it is a beautiful thing(see Ali-Frazier I). But this UFC fighting is not as graceful. The men seem uncoordinated, the punching and kicking is wildly inaccurate, and at one point the men were just laying on top of each other, and I couldn't get with it. I'm sure it appeals to the inner barbarian in us all just fighting to get out, but I don't like. Give me boxing anyday.

Oh, and my ex is getting on my FUCKING nerves. Sorry Ryan, I said I wouldnt curse as much, but this was warranted. If its of any consolation, i've been praying like a priest in a crisis recently. Just wanted to vent for a sentence.

Supa Love - Guru featuring Kelis

4 comments:

TM said...

That's a shame that you didn't have a good time but dayum all that ...you should have at least got a plate.

Quiet Riot said...

Funny...a lot of people don't know about the early exit due to confort. It's amazing how your blog answers questions when I just take a minute to read it.........

Maybe your next cook-out will be better ;-)

nekia said...

I wanted to leave too. I would have felt rude, it being my roomates going away party and all. Instead, I took another nap after you and Raydiance left.

Jo said...

You just keep prayin' like a priest RM. It looks way better on you than a cast does . . .any day!