Friday, March 21, 2008

At one point yesterday, the property manager and two building maintenance guys were standing in the hallway of my apartment trying to find the source of my leaky vent. One was holding a ladder, the other was on top of the ladder, and the annoying property manager was chatting me up about basketball, his rough first days on the job, and other pointless topics. I was hoping my phone would ring or at the very least the other two guys would discover something to get this dude off my back, but no such luck. I know things need to be fixed, but its such a violation to have people you don't know parading around your spacae like they DO know you. Same with the folks who delivered my couch..they had to put it together, and for 20 minutes they were all in my living room. And to add to my angst, I didn't have any cash to tip the brothers for their hard work, so I felt guilty. .Although that delivery fee was $150, so I really shouldn't have to tip right?

I refuse to discuss how good or bad I am doing in my various NCAA pools until Sunday when the first two rounds are completed. I've had some people prematurely talk some jive to me, and I haven't really said anything back, because it is a marathon not a race, slow and steady wins the race, its not the size its the motion..and any other of those b.s cliches fit here. The truth of the matter is I am pissed about how I've started, and I need things to change today and quickly, or I'm deleting all the pools at once. And yes i am a sore loser.

Have you ever had so much on your mind that it abruptly wakes you out of your sleep and stays there for a good hour or so? I have so much on my mind these days, that I feel like I am neglecting some aspect of my life every time I go to sleep. Career changes, sex, apartment decorations, exercise, sex, eating right, writing everyday, family issues and the forgotten one, sex. I think I should put a whiteboard up somewhere in my house, and put a series of checklists up with small boxes next to it. This would allow me to see minor victories(or baby steps as Bob would say), and I could get back to restoring order in my life, because right now it just feels chaotic and frenetic.

Silent Running - Mike and the Mechanics

3 comments:

tia said...

omg rashad, what about bob is one of my favorite movies. kudos for the reference.

Bashful said...

You have plenty of time to catch up in the pool. *snickering*

Janelle said...

Okay, so ummmmm does this pool come with a sundeck, a bar, and a cabanna boy??? I'm just wondering........